best birthday ever. (from what i can remember)
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a pinktastic 24th birfday. courtesy of the best best friend ever. (and her mom). in case you are wondering, yes that is edible glitter on the cupcakes.
watching my arrival video always makes me so sad… even though it should be the happiest moment of my life. my entire family was at the airport waiting for me. i loved having this video to see the excitement on all of their faces when my parents walked into the terminal holding me. now it kills me to see so many of my loved ones that i have lost in recent years. grandma betty, uncle tom, aunt cindy, grandma irene, grandpa paul. this particular frame almost knocked the wind out of me today. exactly one year after my dad’s mom passed away, the same year that we lost my mom’s dad— to see them both in the same video still… i want to pause it indefinitely. no… i want to rewind everything. i want another chance at a moment like this, with my whole family in one room, though i know it to be impossible. and i don’t think i will ever feel as surrounded by love as i was then.
january 27. i miss you, grandma. i hate that i’ve lived an entire year without you.
how i miss rollerblading along lake shore drive with my dslr. found this tolkien quote at a time when i most needed to take its words to heart. it’s good to remind myself of them now and again.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
—
Mark Twain
spent my day off catching up with the two loves of my life. nothing makes me happier than this pair of hot dogs.
